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That shows you where panic gets you.  When I am operating in fear, I am not operating from a point of strength.

 For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. 

2Timothy 1:7

Another scripture I memorized recently is

and in knowledge, self-control; and in self-control, patience; and in patience, godliness;

Well, I’ve been gaining a lot of knowledge about what doesn’t work, which is definitely leading me into self-control, which is developing my patience.  I am working towards getting to that loving, godliness place.

Today, I will work with a spirit of power, love and self-control.

I’m off to spin. 

I don’t like this title, because I believe words are powerful, but maybe people will relate and read this.

I love frozen yogurt, it’s one of the few treats that I have not completely banned from my food repertoire, yes, I had to look up the spelling on that one. 

I used to have it only on Saturdays, but I got to the point where I was having a large and a small with a side of fat free brownies.  I’ve been tweaking my food this month, very challenging, and one thing I decided is that I’m binging on it, because I wouldn’t ‘allow’ myself to eat it during the week so i would shovel as much in as possible, because I wouldn’t be getting any until the next Sat.  Okay, so I went down to 1 large and skipped the fat free brownie topping.  I started having it on Sat. & Sun.  I didn’t lose weight, but i didn’t gain either.  That stuff says it’s only 40 cal. for 4oz. but I am SERIOUSLY doubting that.  It affects my body like no other 300cal.  I’ve ever had.

Okay, it sounds okay, Sat. & Sun. right?  Last week I had it Thurs., Fri., 2 x yesterday( i had the large/small comb sans the ff brownies on the 2nd trip last night), and today.  Also, sometimes I get someone that doesn’t fill it all the way and you can see the space in between the yogurt and the side of the cup, and all I can think of WHILE I’m eating it is this is too small, it isn’t enough, I got ripped off on my one and only large.  With all this thinking and lamenting, how can I enjoy what I did get?

 Okay, can anyone relate to this???????  I’m thinking I need to give this up, but I don’t want to!!!!!!!!!!!!  Yes, I’m stomping my feet and sticking out my lower lip!  I have given up so many things( okay, so they’ve all been crap), to get to this point.  I wouldn’t trade any of those things for the success that i’ve had over the years.

Unfortunately, I think for me to have peace at maintenance and not gain and lose, gain and lose, i’ve got to give this up.  I truly have to pray for the willingness to do this, because white knuckling does not work.  I don’t want any food to have this much power over me.  I thought I could be a grown up with yogurt, but everytime I try, it just starts taking over my thoughts and body.  I feel very bloated and I definitely gain weight when I eat this stuff.

If anyone knows of any horrible nutrition info about Penguin’s frozen yogurt, or if you’ve had success with a similar experience, PLEASE REPLY.  I need help.

a friend of mine gave me a necklace from sundance and it was turquoise w/ some silver beads, and a small cross.  when she gave it to me she said, “i glanced at it and i think it might be defective so you can call them and exchange it.”  when i looked at it, i could see that the silver beads were not symetrical.  i thought the turquoise beads had been stripped off so i went home, went on the website and called the company.  while on hold, i found the necklace and the pic looked just like mine.  i read the description and it said the designer has interspersed silver beads to add a delicate feel to the piece.  i hung up the phone and learned a major lesson from this necklace.

God is my designer, and when I look down and see something about my body that I think is ‘defective’, I smile and think, that’s my silver beads.  I shared this with my kids and asked them if they had something about them they thought was defective.  My daughter said her freckles and my son said his ’special toe’(it’s fused w/ the big toe).  I explained to them, that those were their silver beads that God had designed them that way to make them special.

i love that necklace, and i love my silver beads because that’s what my designer had in mind for me.

a couple of days ago I asked if anyone knew how to lose weight quickly.  okay, i’ve been dealing with food and weight for 30 YEARS, and i know that quick is temporary.  the other thing that i have learned over the last 4-5 years about my body, is that it i train it.  when i did a low to no carb diet about 4 yrs ago, the minute i ate a cracker after 2 months of it, i blew up like a puffer fish.  i had trained my body to not be able to digest carbs.

over the past 6-9 months, i was very legalistic with my food.  fish lunch and dinner 6 days a wk and and snacks that were low in sodium.  i wouldn’t eat out or use salad dressing because of the sodium.  if i ate anything with sodium, i would,yes you guessed it, blow up like a puffer fish.  i had trained my body not to tolerate sodium.

that’s why, even though i asked for suggestions, i wasn’t comfortable doing anything that eliminates entire food groups, because i don’t want to train my body in the wrong way anymore.

so what have i been doing?  tweaking my food.  i’m trying some foods i haven’t tried in awhile, such as a few amy’s and kashi frozen foods that have been in the freezer forever because of the dreaded SODIUM.  all my restrictions and limited foods during the week has been leading to my ‘off’ saturdays.

change is difficult, especially when i know that legalistic things work, but they are only temporary.  you know this is a journey.  from my top of 225lbs. to where i am now, it is ever changing.  things that i was comfortable with before i’m not now.  God shows me by making me uncomfortable.  right now, i’m going through growing pains.  i’m going to a new level of peace and joy.  i will keep you posted on the journey.

i hope you all are enjoying your journey to your new level of peace.

dara

okay, so i’m asking a question that i KNOW the answer to, considering my top weight was 225.  i’ve been between 130 and 135 for almost 2 years.  unfortunately i am at the 135 now, and my clothes don’t fit as well and my mind doesn’t work as well.

exercising is not a problem, but i am convinced for me that it’s 20% exercise and 80% what i put in my mouth.  i was doing a fish only thing for 6 days a wk which would take off whatever i gained on saturday, but i just couldn’t hang with that kind of restriction 6 days a wk every wk anymore.  how i know that i know this, :), is 3 wks ago i had 2 ‘0ff’ days in the wk in addition to my saturday i.e. why i’m at 135 instead of the 132(where most of my clothes fit).

so here i sit with my boobs pressing against my bra, well i guess most people’s boobs do press against their bras, but you KNOW what i mean.

 so all this leads me to my title….does anyone know how to take off 2-3 lbs(or more :)) in 2 days???????????????  i just need to get my sanity back!!!

and to those of you that have a lot to lose, just wait.  your ceiling gets lower, and that’s a good thing.  you know how you feel like you’re going to pop, both mentally and physically, when you hit a certain weight - be it 170 or 200 or 150??  well, my ceiling is now at 135 and i feel like i’m going to POP!  I’ve got to get this off???

 does anybody have a 2 dayer that’s tried and true???

and yes, i read my bible and spent time with God, but he didn’t have a 2 dayer!

 dara 

i figured out the photo thing!  although it’d be a lot easier to find a close up of one of my kids.

i feel like i accomplished something!!  now off to make dinner.

Dara

well, i weighed in today.  1st time in 2 wks.  last time i was 134.  today i was 135.4.  i thought it would be 135 tops, but who’s counting… ME!

i ate the same way for a year and a half so it’s going to take longer than 2 wks. to get my body adjusted to eating ‘normal’ again.  what is normal anyway???  i’ve been dealing with food and weight since i was 15 years old.

i actually went to lunch with my husband today in the middle of the week!!  i never went out in the middle of the week!  he texted me and said it was his best lunch this year!

i memorized the best scripture today.

Everything is permissible for me; but not all things are helpful.

Everything is lawful for me, but I will not become the slave of anything or be brought under its power.                                                1Corinthians 6:12

You know, i have felt like a slave to food, to my weight, to dieting, to maintaining, etc. for the majority of my life,  and i often let frozen yogurt control me.

to quote someone that’s helped me a lot “I’m not where I want to be, but thank God, I’m not where I used to be”.  My husband said to me last night, it doesn’t matter how you start, it just matters how you finish.  i like that except, i don’t think you really ever finish this race.  my goal is peace.  peace with me, my body, my mind, and with the food.

as of right this minute, i have peace.

D

I have no idea what I’m doing on these kind of things.  I tried to download 3 pics, but it said each of them was too big so I guess I’m an apple.

I am feeling frustrated, because my stomach is sticking out and I’m feeling constipated.  I’ve been eating clean for 4 straight days, and I expect to feel thin again.  But I don’t.  I’m weighing tomorrow and I have a feeling it could be 135-137.  I haven’t weighed in at 135 or over in months.  I feel very frustrated.  Did I mention that??  I hate feeling big, but all I want to do is eat.  I’m not feeling very strong or motivated right now.

I’m going to study the bible now and find some strength in there.

I am struggling with my food, my attitude, and this website.

I changed my food 2 wks. ago after eating a very legalistic way for a yr. and 1/2.  I was 2lbs. above goal and now I’m probably around 5 or so.  I’m weighing tomorrow, because not weighing for 2 wks. is driving me crazy!!!!

I am a stay at home mom, 44, and could use some feedback from someone that has had success in maintenance and/or this website.

Is anyone out there?

Dara

Well, here I am writing about food, my body and feelings….AGAIN!!!  I’m 44 years old and have been dealing with food issues since I was in my early teens.  I’m 5′8″ and the last time I weighed, about 2 weeks ago, I was 134.  This might sound great, but I need to be at 130-132 to fit in all of my clothes.  I would like to be at the 130 to have a little wiggle room.  A girl’s gotta wiggle.  My top weight, when I was pregnant with my daughter was 225.  In my 30s, I managed to stay between 150-160.  Finally, 2 years ago in June, I signed up for LAWL and weighed in at 151.  I got down to 130 by Thanksgiving.  I went from a size 8/10 to a 4.  I love being a size 4!!!!

I have found that it is harder to maintain it than to lose it.  When I was losing, I was going into the center once a week, and I was determined and motivated.  Now all the centers are closed, but that’s not that big of a deal, because most of the people in there knew less about food and weight loss than I did. 

 Anyway, the plan is no miracle, it’s just basically weighing and measuring your food and eating a well balanced diet.  In other words a sensible way to eat.

 Where I am now is I eat a lot on Saturdays and spend Sun.-Fri. losing what I gained on Sat.  This basically works for me, except when I have more than one off day.  2 weeks ago I had 3!! hence why I haven’t weighed in 2 weeks.  I generally weigh Mon.-Sat., but lately I’ve been afraid to weigh, because I changed my food.  For about a year and a half I ate fish for lunch and dinner 6 days a week and the same breakfast and snacks.  I think I just popped mentally i.e. the 3 off days in one week.  I just couldn’t do it.  I ate that way, because the fish I ate, along with the other foods were very low in sodium.  Now that I’ve added things like chicken, tuna, cottage cheese, eggs, and low sodium deli turkey meat, I’m a little afraid to get on the scale.  I ate on Saturday, and because I didn’t start at 132, I could tell by my clothes, I am extremely bloated, haven’t weighed due to sheer terror of what the scale would say.

I guess I’m doing this to see if other so called ‘normal’ people deal with this Saturday issue.  I just feel like I have to have something to look forward to and some freedom from weighing and measuring everything.

I’m going to weigh on Friday so I will post it. 

I’m a christian and a big Joyce Meyer fan so I’m trying to say only positive things and keep a good attitude.  I know my food needed to change, it was getting difficult to maintain.  I’m having faith that I will find the right balance with the food.